Choosing Himself
He’s a man who will always choose himself;in sickness and in health. I’ve given my all to keep him pleased,but now I turn around and say, “What about me?” An entanglement has its needsand cannot survive with personal greed. Loneliness leaves you standing in the rain; waiting for a man who will never change.
What You Deserve
You are entitled to live and entitled to thrive.You are entitled to be happy and entitled to cry.You are entitled to breathe and entitled to hold.You are entitled to be free and entitled to let go.
Stages of an Intrusive Thought
I’m caught in an endless loophole—trapped in a moment in time that plays over and over again.Oh, don’t worry, I made it out of it today. Now I await the next episode to come, whether that’s in two weeks, months, or even a year. It always comes because that’s what intrusive thoughts do. They come […]
the court of judgement
A voice within me has started to chant,Preservere, preservere, preservere…LIVE. I don’t want to be shamed for this or for that;in a life that’s been lived, something will always look badin the eyes of a holy court that decides who belongs,but just because my story is different doesn’t mean it’s wrong.I lived and I learned; […]
Yesterday’s Trauma = Today’s Suffering
I forgot how to let my walls down. I don’t remember what it was like to just say what I felt. Have I ever known that at all? My whole life, I kept the darkness at bay, sealed in an airtight jar and hidden in a coded safe. I’ve always held myself to a standard […]
I Live
I used to think that when my skin wrinkled and my hair turned thin and grey, I would find peace within. “I’ll be older then,” I said. “I’ll know the way of the world, and I’ll be at peace.” That was when I was young. I’m still young now—not even a quarter through life. But […]
Finding Peace
You’re never going to break my soul nor the fire that burns in my heart, maybe a scar on my body left by stained glass shards. You won’t take my beating breath away, not after the times it has come close, if you don’t love me, someone else will, and if no one does, I […]
I Say Goodbye
It is time to give it up; let it go and let it blow with the wind off into the distance, across the plains, and into the mountains until it seizes to be—carried away by the whisper of the wind until its remnants can be heard no longer. It is a thing that does not […]
to be understood.
The epitome of human connection is to be understood. Without understanding, human relationships can fall apart even quicker than they came to be. You’re so blinded by what you think is right and wrong that you fail to see. You’re blind to me because you can’t see why I am the way I am or […]
I don’t want it anymore
I don’t pray anymore.I used to believe in the Father—my father that passed in the past—and then I believed in heaven,a hopeful cloud that didn’t last.I played a faithless symphony coldpraying to the god of death,now I don’t believe in anything at all,only one being, being myself. I was born as a parent;I don’t want […]